March 2019 – The Recovering Cultist

The tyranny of the interesting

March 16, 2019 recoveringcultist

Thanks to ADHD, I live my life by the tyranny of the interesting. Anything that’s not “interesting” is like pulling teeth to start. Anything that IS interesting is like pulling teeth to STOP. What’s “interesting” is seemingly random, an unpredictable x-factor. Sometimes, from the outside, … “The tyranny of the interesting”

Who the fuck am I???

March 16, 2019 recoveringcultist

For 3 decades, I knew who I was – a Mormon. Then I left the church. For two years after that, I knew who I was – an ex-Mormon. I tried as many new things as I could, a process that is still on-going. Then … “Who the fuck am I???”

Existential crisis

March 09, 2019 recoveringcultist

I feel simultaneously like I’ve never struggled so hard and that life’s never been better. I’m a mess of contradictions and paradoxes. I’m trusting my intuition and decisions more than ever, and creating my own meaning in life, but also and feeling so small and … “Existential crisis”

On sadness and pain

March 01, 2019 recoveringcultist

I recently experienced a personal loss that has left me grieving and in pain for several weeks now. These kinds of experiences always really throw me for a loop. Though these experiences are universal human experiences, in my case, I suspect ADHD and rejection sensitive … “On sadness and pain”