(Mis)adventures in ADHD and post-Mormonism
One of my favorite quotes by Alan Watts: …we’ve simply cheated ourselves the whole way down the line. We thought of life by analogy with a journey with a pilgrimage which had a serious purpose at the end – the thing was to get to … “Alan Watts – Life is not a Journey”
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Dear random chance: Thank you for giving rise to DNA, and making me a vehicle for a short time, one tiny part in an immense chain, for its continued propagation. Thank you, random chance, for powering evolution, which has given me everything I am, over … “An atheist’s prayer to random chance”
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Thanks to ADHD, I live my life by the tyranny of the interesting. Anything that’s not “interesting” is like pulling teeth to start. Anything that IS interesting is like pulling teeth to STOP. What’s “interesting” is seemingly random, an unpredictable x-factor. Sometimes, from the outside, … “The tyranny of the interesting”
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For 3 decades, I knew who I was – a Mormon. Then I left the church. For two years after that, I knew who I was – an ex-Mormon. I tried as many new things as I could, a process that is still on-going. Then … “Who the fuck am I???”
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I feel simultaneously like I’ve never struggled so hard and that life’s never been better. I’m a mess of contradictions and paradoxes. I’m trusting my intuition and decisions more than ever, and creating my own meaning in life, but also and feeling so small and … “Existential crisis”
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I recently experienced a personal loss that has left me grieving and in pain for several weeks now. These kinds of experiences always really throw me for a loop. Though these experiences are universal human experiences, in my case, I suspect ADHD and rejection sensitive … “On sadness and pain”
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Someone asked me recently “what makes life worth living to you?” Here’s my (current working theory) response: I think you create your own meaning, and part of finding/creating yourself is figuring out what makes life meaningful for YOU and then pursuing it! The answer will … “The meaning of life”
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I read about molecules and dinosaurs and our natural world as a kid, I taught myself computer programming at 12 because I wanted to write my own video games. I love STEM, did well in school, was curious, asked questions, was a self-motivated learner, good … “Compartmentalization”
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There will never be another you. You were perfect, from the day you were born, to the day you died. Absolutely perfect. You were my whole world, and my everything. I was so in love with you. I couldn’t imagine life without you! I wish … “There will never be another you”
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Current mood. I wanted to have eternity to ponder the science of creating universes with the mind of a God. I wanted to have eternity to live in love with my sweetheart in our best, perfect bodies, having all the sex and enjoying our loved … “What I wanted vs what I have”
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