The Recovering Cultist – Page 2 – (Mis)adventures in ADHD and post-Mormonism

Life is pain. Life is struggle.

October 08, 2019October 08, 2019 recoveringcultist

There is no meaning but the meaning we create. No wonder people need comforting, if false, stories, like myths, heroic stories, religion, legends of larger-than-life scientific greats. They need comfort. I need comfort, because the truth is harsh. The truth is… Everything has an end, … “Life is pain. Life is struggle.”

Absurdism

October 01, 2019October 01, 2019 recoveringcultist

I’m drifting into absurdism. The gospel of Deadpool, mixed with the gospel of bill and Ted. Nothing means anything, so do what you want, but be excellent to each other. “Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die” – that Korihor was a smart … “Absurdism”

Perfectionism

September 19, 2019September 20, 2019 recoveringcultist

“Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect” NO. That is some BULLSHIT. Do you really think that any person has ever been perfect? For that matter, how can you get people to agree on what perfection even means?? … “Perfectionism”

Alan Watts – Life is not a Journey

August 03, 2019 recoveringcultist

One of my favorite quotes by Alan Watts: …we’ve simply cheated ourselves the whole way down the line. We thought of life by analogy with a journey with a pilgrimage which had a serious purpose at the end – the thing was to get to … “Alan Watts – Life is not a Journey”

An atheist’s prayer to random chance

April 01, 2019April 02, 2019 recoveringcultist

Dear random chance: Thank you for giving rise to DNA, and making me a vehicle for a short time, one tiny part in an immense chain, for its continued propagation. Thank you, random chance, for powering evolution, which has given me everything I am, over … “An atheist’s prayer to random chance”

The tyranny of the interesting

March 16, 2019 recoveringcultist

Thanks to ADHD, I live my life by the tyranny of the interesting. Anything that’s not “interesting” is like pulling teeth to start. Anything that IS interesting is like pulling teeth to STOP. What’s “interesting” is seemingly random, an unpredictable x-factor. Sometimes, from the outside, … “The tyranny of the interesting”

Who the fuck am I???

March 16, 2019 recoveringcultist

For 3 decades, I knew who I was – a Mormon. Then I left the church. For two years after that, I knew who I was – an ex-Mormon. I tried as many new things as I could, a process that is still on-going. Then … “Who the fuck am I???”

Existential crisis

March 09, 2019 recoveringcultist

I feel simultaneously like I’ve never struggled so hard and that life’s never been better. I’m a mess of contradictions and paradoxes. I’m trusting my intuition and decisions more than ever, and creating my own meaning in life, but also and feeling so small and … “Existential crisis”

On sadness and pain

March 01, 2019 recoveringcultist

I recently experienced a personal loss that has left me grieving and in pain for several weeks now. These kinds of experiences always really throw me for a loop. Though these experiences are universal human experiences, in my case, I suspect ADHD and rejection sensitive … “On sadness and pain”

The meaning of life

January 19, 2019January 19, 2019 recoveringcultist

Someone asked me recently “what makes life worth living to you?” Here’s my (current working theory) response: I think you create your own meaning, and part of finding/creating yourself is figuring out what makes life meaningful for YOU and then pursuing it! The answer will … “The meaning of life”