anxiety – The Recovering Cultist

The Hall Closet

February 19, 2020February 19, 2020 recoveringcultist

My chest shudders with fearMy belly tightensMy skin sweatsMy mind racesFacing the parts of this houseThat still bear her markMaking it mine(Re)claiming the spaceReleasing emotionsTrying to own a spaceTake up spaceIn my own fucking houseIt’s a loooooong processIt’s been yearsAnd yet she echoes stillHer ghostHer … “The Hall Closet”

2020-01-21 on fear

January 21, 2020January 21, 2020 recoveringcultist

This post came to me during my morning (non-guided) meditation with Insight Timer. Use fear/anxiety as motivation to action, not paralysis. The animal brain fears, and this can be a good signal, and can inform my actions, but I tend to use it to justify … “2020-01-21 on fear”