i am afraid of shipping a freelance project.

i am afraid of:

• losing this income source
• losing this business relationship if it flops and the client blames me

i’m not trusting myself to make the correct decisions, and i want all risk to be eliminated by seeing / planning for every possible problem in advance, i.e. having a perfect app.

no one can see every problem in advance, but i can trust myself that i’ve seen enough of them, and that i’ll be able to react to them. it’s unreasonable to get it perfect before launch. yeah, you only get one chance to make a first impression with a particular user, but, you can be relatively sure you don’t have deal-breaking bugs that make your initial users drawn in by client’s advertising budget/efforts bounce off immediately.

i do not client’s money / efforts / time spent in vain.

i figured out this stuff by meditating

WE CAN ONLY DO OUR BEST

the perfectionism demon, the “can’t let people see possible mistakes or i’m a bad person”, the “i don’t trust myself and my brain to make good decisions”, the “it’s hard to actually wrap up the little loose ends and declare it good enough to ship” things are all shouting at me rn. but it’s time to actually fucking SHIP something lol. i have sooo many past projects that never saw the light of day thx to perfectionism… that ends now